Time's up.

The time is up. Pauliina's plane leaves in 1 hour, towards Madrid, en route to Santiago, Chile.

I truly and honestly feel like crap. All the years I've spent with her feels too short. All tho they were the best experiences my life hath given me. :)

Thank you, my love, thank you. <3

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The Berzerker

It's been ages since the last post, so I decided to make my first MUSIC post. Recently, I've been listening to this band called The Berzerker, Australian speed/grindcore band, playing with extreme speed. My musical taste runs around Black- and Death metal, usually the most brutal and grim sub-genres amongst them, including Brutal Death metal, True Norwegian Black Metal and Tech Death Metal.

When it comes to computermade music, It's all about Hardstyle and Dubstep, the best of electronic music. Kick and wobble that bass, you filthy motherfuckers!

Let's make a list of "GOOD" songs I listen to (including lyrics):

The Berzerker - Reality

Lyrics:
The uncreative juices flow from all but a selective few
and even those they tend to be wasted,
you have taken pride in a lifeform that you think you know
but what you do not know is it's rotting,
it is so unfortunate that this is how our world must be
but why must I accept reality, is this reality?
how can I exist amongst you people when I feel this way
when all that seems so wrong is everywhere,
A world without substance feeling so superior
I am discontent with lies and with ineffective lives,
should I grieve for mankind or live out my life
to be free of pain I'll want it back again,
so to be one with man I must be false to myself
any effort's futile for my life is just mine,
I have visions of worlds that are unparalleled
my attempts are in vain to walk this earth without shame,
for being human,
This is my reality and you do not have to accept it
you are only human with excuses and complaints,
couldn't you be something greater come on now you know the answer
you are so absorbed with your own pathetic lives,
why should I feel pity for you I don't think I know the answer,
have you ever thought about opening your closed eyes,
what is it that you're afraid of, don't you want to see yourself,
couldn't bear to see yourself as I see you.

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Gorgoroth - Katharinas Bortgang

Lyrics:
Gorgoroth does not give out their lyrics, since they don't want to be covered.

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Decrepit Birth - Shroud of Impurity

Lyrics:
The shroud transcends
Crippling all in it's path
Corrupting the hearts of man
Segregation of souls

The ageless form emerges
The ancient powers, unbound by time
Bestowing judgment - infinite reign

(Time/few will live)
(Times/to congregate)
(Half of time/in opposition)
The prophecy becomes

Duality within, mirroring dimensions

A division of two separate truths both must be, pure, impure
(Human beings, mutilated/sacrificing human beings) for belief
Balance of powers, unbalanced. desecration of time

Atmospheric layers dissolve
Blackened ash shrouds the sky

Overshadowed by the now

Desecrated creation
All that was has come to pass
Wrongs that can not be undone
Earth is altered

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It's 10 bloody days anymore. :( Depresses me shitloads. Atleast I've got some things to do while she's away! She made me this awesome book, which tells about our relationship during the time we've been together, from her perspective of course. I loved it. She even tells me that she has something extra for me, something she made. :O Excited and can't wait.


Anyway, have a nice day.

What is this I don't even

Oooooooooooooooooooh what the fuck!? Two fucking brilliant sauna evenings(nights) in a row! Invade Jere during evening, spend shitloads of good time in sauna, run naked in the streets of Pakila and grill that fucking sausage! Well, what can you expect from a fucked up group of guys?

I've also got a god-damn-motherfucking infected wound on my left big toe. It's been sickeningly hurt for 5 days now, and end doesn't seem to arrive. wat do. Can't be arsed to visit the doctor.

Never ever play with your toenails, which are easily ripped off.

Sincerely,
Riku Mäkinen.


Anyway, I guess I'm off to spend my day. Enjoy.

WAAAAAAAAT

odd day was odd. Waking up at 14.00 and lagging hard home until 19.00, afterwards going out with my dogs and spending 2 hours, YES, TWO MOTHERFUCKING HOURS with them along with Pauliina and friends.


28 days.. 28 days.. 28 days.. a depressing amount it is, yet it shrinks. What the hell am I going to do the 355 days!? Suggestions are welcome. I've been thinking of gym, yes gym. Maybe a musical soloproject. Dunno yet.

Small post was small, good night.